posi-pan

wayne brady is pansexual!!! 💗💛💙🥳

i’m pansexual. in doing my research, both with myself and just with the world, i couldn’t say if i was bisexual, because i had to really see what that was, especially because i really have not gotten a chance to act on anything. so, i came to pansexual because — and i know that i’m completely messing up the dictionary meaning — but to me, pan means being able to be attracted to anyone who identifies as gay, straight, bi, transsexual or non-binary. being able to be attracted across the board. and, i think, at least for me for right now, that is the proper place. i took pan to mean that not only can i be attracted to any of these people or types physically, but i could be attracted to the person that is there.

i’ve dealt with the shame. a shame cake, just eating it every single day — and then worried about… people finding out. i’ve always had a wonderful community of friends who are in the lgbtq+ community, people that i’ve grown up with in shows, gays and lesbians, and, later in life, my trans relatives and my niece. i’ve always had that community, but i've always felt like a sham because i wasn’t being forthcoming with myself. i could speak out about black issues because i can’t hide that. and you can play at being an ally, but until the day that you can truly say, “this is who i am, and i wanna stand next to you,” that's not… i always wanted that day to come.

i’ve told myself in the past, also, nobody needs to know my personal business. the world can absolutely go without knowing that wayne identifies as pan. but that gave me license to still live in the shadows and to be secretive. what does that feel like to actually not be shameful, to not feel like, “oh, i can’t be part of this conversation because i’m lying?” i had to break that behavior.

i’m now trying to be the most wayne brady i can be. i don’t know about most, actually. i’m still coming together. but if i’m healthy, then i can go onstage at let’s make a deal and be the best wayne brady that everybody wants and expects. i can be the best dad that maile needs. i can be the best friend to mandie, the best son to my mother, and one day, the best partner to someone, because i’m doing this for me. not dating yet though! [laughs] i am single, but it’s not about being with someone right now. i’ve got some work to do still. then, wayne as a single, open-minded pansexual can make a decision and be free and open to other people.

i included more quotes from the article than just strictly pan related because it’s quite touching. good for him!!!! 🌈👏🥰

iamnotlanuk

it fucking sucks how you can do all the therapy and self healing in the world and you still have to wake up living under a capitalist death cult that's killed community and crushes your soul

iamnotlanuk

congrats you want to live and be happy

bad news the world doesn't want that for you

iamnotlanuk

I'll still love fully and crawl to hope until my body gives out anyway I guess

retirement-home-rumble

Retirement Home Rumble: Semifinals

Side B

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*DISCLAIMER (PLEASE READ):

This poll is referring specifically to the characters played by these streamers. However, Technoblade, the youtuber, tragically passed away last year. I do not want to see anyone being toxic or disrespectful to his legacy. Feel free to spread propaganda and vote for who you want, but anyone crossing a line will be blocked

Why they would crush the other geezers under the cut:

WARNING: There may be spoilers

Keep reading

moons-br

GUYS THERES LIKE A DAY LEFT TO TIE THEM EMERALD DUO NEEDS LIKE 400 MORE VOTES (if my math is correct) GUYS PLEASE!!!!

mothnem

VOTE EMDUO!

WINZIG DEMANDS IT!

lilimonarch

Now come on mcytblr, there's gotta be a bunch of you. Yall should vote for emerald duo I'm just saying, wouldn't it be great for them to get to the finals?

thebrilliant-dogstar

Emerald duo is a whole percent behind! Come on yall

moons-br

THEY ARE WITHIN TIE RATES!!!!

retirement-home-rumble

Incredible

octonine

They got out of tie!!!

Fa, Gandalf, Stan and Ford are at 48,6%

Phil and Techno are at 51,4%

VOTE FOR FA, GANDALF, STAN AND FORD TO TIESWEEP!!!

retirement-home-rumble

Holy

sootpologist

VOTE EMERALDDUO PUT PHILZA IN THE RETIREMENT HOME

greenmountainwitch

Felled and reclaimed

wonderbound

hey fam

well :/

didn't want it to come to this, but here we are

here's the situation: i've been out of work for two weeks (so far) bc of my rapidly deteriorating mental health, which i finally, finally have worked up the courage to seek treatment for. i'm expecting to be out of work for at least another couple weeks while i adjust to my meds, and all of that time is. unpaid. i'm applying for short-term disability rn but a) that's not gonna cover all my lost wages and b) it's not gonna come through for a while, and in the meantime i have uhhhhh bills to pay. also a kitty to feed. also a me.

sooooo

paypal.me/wonderbound

if anyone is able to throw a few bucks my way it would be incredibly appreciated. any little bit helps, seriously. and if not, that's okay too! absolutely no pressure at all. but things are getting pretty dire and i'm trying to be better at asking for and accepting help when i need it, so. yeah.

wonderbound

update: have to wait until next week to get my dr to fill out the form for my short-term disability benefits so uhhhh yeah. any help is very much appreciated

geekdawson

one of the more valuable things I’ve learned in life as a survivor of a mentally unstable parent is that it is likely that no one has thought through it as much as you have. 

no, your friend probably has not noticed they cut you off four times in this conversation. 

no, your brother didn’t realize his music was that loud while you were studying. 

no, your bff or S.O. doesn’t remember that you’re on a tight deadline right now.

no, no one else is paying attention to the four power dynamics at play in your friend group right now.  

a habit of abused kids, especially kids with unstable parents, is the tendency to notice every little detail. We magnify small nuances into major things, largely because small nuances quickly became breaking points for parents. Managing moods, reading the room, perceiving danger in the order of words, the shift of body weight….it’s all a natural outgrowth of trying to manage unstable parents from a young age. 

Here’s the thing: most people don’t do that. I’m not saying everyone else is oblivious, I’m saying the over analysis of minor nuances is a habit of abuse. 

I have a rule: I do not respond to subtext. This includes guilt tripping, silent treatments, passive aggressive behavior, etc. I see it. I notice it. I even sometimes have to analyze it and take a deep breath and CHOOSE not to respond. Because whether it’s really there or just me over-reading things that actually don’t mean anything, the habit of lending credence to the part of me that sees danger in the wrong shift of body weight…that’s toxic for me. And dangerous to my relationships. 

The best thing I ever did for myself and my relationships was insist upon frank communication and a categorical denial of subtext. For some people this is a moral stance. For survivors of mentally unstable parents this is a requirement of recovery. 

in--blo0m

instead of giving us tumblrmart and tumblr live they should let us connect our spotify so we can see what our mutuals are listening to while they scroll

1rakus

how would you have died in a past life

samreich

Dropout is back in production. 🫡

As I mentioned, Dropout is not associated with the AMPTP, who negotiates on behalf of the majority of studios and streamers. But truthfully, there's no such thing as a "struck company." There are instead "struck contracts" -- and not-struck contracts.

We assumed Dropout's contract - the New Media Agreement for Non-Dramatic Programming - was stuck because it wasn't specifically on a list of non-struck contracts. After speaking at length with our lawyers and with SAG, turns out that is not the case.

So, Dropout can return to business as usual. And because none of our shows were ever struck, talent can go back to promoting their Dropout appearances. 🎉

SAG's decisions are in part strategic. Small streamers like us continuing to work while the major streamers cannot gives us a competitive advantage and puts more pressure on them to make a deal. 😎

But make no mistake about it: We continue to support our striking performers and their cause.

- Between Dropout and me personally, we have donated $20,000 to the Entertainment Community Fund.

- If anyone doesn't feel comfortable working with us or promoting their work during the strike for whatever reason, we respect their decision.

- While we already pay above minimums, we will continue to go above and beyond to reward and protect our performers *and* crew members, and plan to put even more of our money where our mouth is before the end of the year.

Dropout fans, thank you for your support and solidarity during this uncertain time. Keep supporting the Entertainment Community Fund, as well as the pet projects of your favorite creators.

And with that, it's back to work. ⛏️

havens-positivity-corner

any progress is something worth celebrating!!

even if it's something as seemingly small as finally having the energy to brush your teeth or eating a snack when you feel hungry, I'm proud of you <3

triviallytrue

i'm a taylor swift centrist. she makes perfectly tolerable pop music that i can't imagine really getting into. dunno what it is about her that makes so many people go insane

triviallytrue

i listen to one of these relatively bland and inoffensive but nonetheless well-crafted pop songs and everyone around me demands that i proclaim it a masterpiece or artistically bankrupt or whatever. i just want to grill for god's sake

blueandbluer

Every day I am forced to learn things about Taylor Swift against my will

rippleskip

Being nearsighted makes sense to me, it’s like having a render distance. The concept that some people are farsighted scares me, what do you mean you can’t see things the closer they are to you